I have spent my whole life trying to fill this empty
hole in my gut and quiet the noise in my head telling
me I was no good. I tried everything I could think
of; alcohol & drugs, men, having the right material
things, years of therapy, pills & self help
books but in the end I would turn up more empty.
Nothing worked until….
In November of 2005 I ingested mold sores from
a faulty dishwasher my husband was removing from
our house. I proceed to get sicker than I had ever
been in my life. I was having trouble breathing
and was not getting enough oxygen to my brain; I
had toxic encephalitis. Within a few weeks I had
a list of problems such as peripheral neuropathy,
chronic fatigue, leaky gut, EMF and chemical sensitivity.
I went to the Environmental Center in Dallas for
1 month of treatments. After a large bill, I was
still sick & feeling hopeless.
I was barely hanging on to life. I had a feeling
throughout my body of burning and prickling, that
was intensely painful, I could think of nothing
else; it consumed me on a daily basis. I felt like
my life was over. I was suicidal. 2006 is a blur
to me everyday I prayed to God for hours on my knees
asking Him to heal and help me.
God heard my prayers because I started seeing a
therapist who said he had a friend whose wife went
through exactly what I was describing. I spoke with
her on the phone; she gave me hope and was well
(there is no medical cure for this). In Jan. 2007
I went through Journey2Wholeness teachings. After
learning about spiritual roots of diseases and asking
God in my heart through Father’s Love and
forgiving my own father, I was delivered of Chronic
Fatigue and started feeling better. When they delivered
us from the spirit of fear, I felt a shifting and
a physical change in my body. Deborah was speaking
and it echoed in my body, and I knew the Lord was
doing something.
In August 2007 I went to Georgia to the Pleasant
Valley Church “For your life” program.
I was set free of EI after dealing with my broken
heart, fear and occultism “new age”
beliefs. I am now walking out of EI by taking back
my land- what the enemy tried to take away. Jesus
became real to me, it was one thing to read about
Him healing but now I was experienced it. My faith
in Him soared, everything changed for me, and I
finally found what I was looking for my whole life.
Today I know that Jesus is more real than anything
of this world, He heals and delivers. He has made
me whole in every way. I learned He wants good things
for us but we have to be in right standing with
Him. I try to obey Him by following what He teaches
in the bible. I repent when I sin so I can be in
right relationship with Him. Forgiving others has
also been a huge part of my healing. I would have
settled for just physical healing but He has done
much more. He lives in my heart today in a way that
is miraculous; my life will never be the same. I
don’t need to look further I finally found
the answer…it is Jesus.
