April, 2005, I met Deborah Massey and Traci Morin co-founders of Journey2wholeness Ministries at an unusual place, a party I was hosting for a Naturopathic Doctor for whom I worked.

“Do You have a Broken Heart?” asked Traci about one hour into our conversation.

“Don’t think so,” I replied.

But deep within my spirit, I knew I did. It just didn’t make any sense at the time. Shortly thereafter, she sent me The Broken Heart, CD and my journey to wholeness has been an amazing life-transforming adventure.

Over the last three years, my journey has resulted in the healing of my broken heart. This includes the healing of relationships between God, self and others. I have learned that I don't have to fix everything, I don’t have to be perfect, and that I am not responsible for the Sun rising or setting. I am no one’s Holy Spirit. I have learned that I am accepted in the beloved and that I am not rejected. I have also learned when I lose my peace, check my heart to see if there is any bitterness in it. Bitterness kills.

My marriage of 40 years is better than it's ever been. I have released my four adult children to be “all that God created them to be.” (This has brought great freedom). And my children are all that God has created them to be. Last year, my oldest son had a miracle, healing of a brain tumor. Another son’s life was spared in a motorcycle accident. There has been restoration in our family.

My physical healings came about through deliverance of evil spirits:

• obsessive compulsive disorders healed,
• allergies healed,
• deliverance from night torment,
• depression healed,
• self hatred healed
• marriage restoration
• and a bulging disc in my neck healed
• I am off several medicines. I’m no longer involved in alternative medicine.

My healings came when I understood the spiritual roots behind my disease and taking responsibility, repenting and renouncing and eliminating it through deliverance and removal of evil spirits.

I spent my life dancing as fast as I could - looking for love in all the wrong places. The Unloving Spirit drives – leading to performance, perfection and drivenness. Unloving was huge in my life. However Journey2Wholeness - a healing ministry and deliverance ministry taught me that there is A MORE EXCELLENT WAY. When we’re willing and obedient we will eat the good of the land.

I have also learned how to truly discern good from evil. We live in a generation with this is tantamount to survival. Most importantly, I have learned who my heavenly Father truly is. (I used to think of Him as an old man sitting on a throne with a big stick in his hand just waiting for me to mess up.) But that was a lie. I believed so many lies. I had spent years in self-sabotage behavior not realizing that this was a generational curse. The Truth makes us free.

Overcoming fear – fear of failure, fear of man and fear of rejection has brought great peace in my life. I used to think I was a woman of faith. But truth be told, I was doing it all in my own strength. Now I am learning to trust Father God more each day, and guess what, He shows Himself strong. He is faithful.

Now, I have found my place in God. And I am taking my place in the earth. I am the apple of His eye. I am accepted in the Beloved. I am not rejected. I am loved. And I thank God for giving me eyes to see. We’re all going from glory to glory. CAS/Texas