"I Will Restore" by Cathy Walker from www.cathywalker.com.

I remember always quoting this scripture growing up as a Christian… "We are each to work out our own salvation with fear and trembling." Philippians 2:12. Are you suffering from tormenting thoughts, a body that is tired, exhausted, and you just are unable to overcome the things that life has thrown at you? That was me! I finally hit that place too. Welcome to my bio page. Allow me to share with you more about my life. My favorite hymn, "Great is Thy Faithfulness".

Life Scripture - Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

The Ministry scripture and calling God revealed of my life. "And they that shall be of thee shall build the old waste places: thou shalt raise up the foundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, The repairer of the breach, The restorer of paths to dwell in." Isaiah 58:12 I am ever learning more on how these continue to apply and reapply in and around my life.

I had Life traumas like most of us, but there was one that threw the final blow! A failure in life that led me into a journey of hopelessness and despair. Praise God, He heard my cry! The Lord was gracious to hear me and teach me how to be healed and Restored! I learned I had a Broken Heart. That along was a RHEMA word for me. "He hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted…" I had a BREACH in my love walk, in ALL 3 areas?

Here was a life that was in the church my entire life and yet I was overcome in sickness; mental and spiritual torment. For years, Prophets would speak over me that my calling was that of Isaiah 58:12. "I was called to be the repairer of the Breach". That I would help the brokenhearted be restored. (Isaiah 61, Luke 4:18) That God had a plan for my life, thoughts of peace, not evil. (Jer. 29:11) I Finally understood what this really means! Thus in my journey to wholeness of seeking God for answers, led me supernaturally in 2004 to learn "a more excellent way". To learn that 80% of disease has a spiritual root! At that time I had ceased most church activities and ministry related involvement. I had not ever really been sick, other than for the migraines. Never broken a bone, been admitted to a hospital, only to visit, taken any medications other than an aspirin for the headaches for over 40 yrs. All that changed when my body broke down. I was medically diagnosed with the following diseases of which I have been made whole and healed.

• Low Thyroid
• Migraines (24yrs.)
• Depression (spiritually/mentally oppressed)
• Food/Environmental Allergies
• Adrenal Exhaustion/ chronic fatigue
• Off the Chart Cortisol level high
• Hormonal imbalances
• Paralyzing Fear of Public Speaking
• Learning Disability

"Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God." 2 Cor. 7:1 So yes I understood salvation, but it was time to really learn Sanctification. What I had been taught so well was Perfectionism -NOT Sanctification. The fear of loosing ones' Salvation from making a mistake or the unpardonable sin? (Which no one really knew What that really was) Work hard and continually at being Perfect!

In this dive of defeat, I sought help from medical doctors who only wanted to place me on many drugs. "Doctors Practicing medicine" took on a whole new meaning! They were practicing on me, for sure. Take this, try this, stop and start this, add more of this, with little change, now take that, not much different and really saw no REAL change or improvement physically or mentally. The thyroid and migraines was supposed to be with me till death due us part. Convinced me I HAD to take those meds to function or ALL doom and gloom would happen. Talking about FEAR?! As time passed, I just had to take More, and More, and More and higher and higher dosages! Lot of money, time and little change.

Now the Alternative medicine route was next. Big FULL bookcase and countertops full of bottles and running from this treatment to that treatment. Some measure of relief would come, but a continual searching for something NEW to give me real Strength to get me OUT of bed with a clear mind, not the foggy thinking. I felt depleted and defeated with the pocketbook now in the same state.

A life long Learning Disability, living in fear all my life coming out of a childhood trauma in school. Fighting my whole life to overcome with defeating lies, deep inside and exhaustion in over compensation for it. I believed the lie -" I was just born this way!" "I can't do it". Traumas and lies set in motion the ultimate loss and destruction of so many dreams and desires of my heart.

Being in ministry most of my life from teens to present, I had always sought more of God. I had inner turmoil from traumas that God has now shown me its effects in life. I was blaming God, blaming me and it drove me to strive in always learning, seeking and training for more answers of God through numerous modalities:

• Biblical Counseling Programs
• Personality, temperament and gift testing
• Biblical-based self-improvement programs
• Inner-healing modalities
• "Old school" deliverance ministry
• Prophetic ministry

Spent several years involved in major national and international healing ministries. From the New Wine 5/ discipleship, "Toronto Blessing and Pensacola revival!" PTL, TBN, CBN - I did not miss too many. Does this sound like a similar journey you have been on?

It is why we continue to go from revival, to seminar to conference for the "latest movement or spiritual fad". What is this ministry or church doing, we better run there and grab all of God. Are you still seeking? Are you still running to this and that to get that deep peace and satisfaction? Why can't He meet you right where I am in all this? This Starving expectations for a NEW touch, relief from inner turmoil and torment that plagues many of those in the church. The spiritual renewals we trust will wash us up and pour out more of HIS spirit on us. Yes, God meets us there - as we LET HIM and as much as we know how to receive. The evil in this land overtakes us into torment and sickness, WHY- I would ask? “My people perish for lack of knowledge.” Hosea 4:6

My continual questions would be, “Why as a Christian, are we still walking in sickness, why are Christians committing suicide, why are they dying or living with diseases everyday and so sick or dying at young ages? Why is your POWER not being experienced within the body of Christ? WHY GOD? Your word says in… Psalm 103:3 “Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;” The deep down oppression, the deep never ending seeking- “ There HAS to be MORE!! Where is the RELIEF, the Miracles? We are supposed to be blessed, we are NOT supposed to be sick” The church is not being the church!” WHY God, they are all blaming you! Why?Isaiah 53:5, “But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”

Oh, God heals He just hasn’t chosen to heal me yet? Or The BIG one I hear…He allows these things to happen to teach me something! With that logic of thinking…and if that is so, “ then you’re seeking medical or professional help to be better is plain and simple- rebellion!” Think about it?

God says we are to be BLESSED, not CURSED -Deuteronomy 28! A curse causeless does not come. Prov 26:2 Many may not call it a curse, but we feel like something is wrong with us. We have missed it some how- somewhere and, there is just something wrong with You! “What a LIE of the ENEMY! It is Not You! It Is Not You! Let me say it again… IT IS NOT YOU!”

Journey2Wholeness Ministries, Inc. was birthed out of it all for the purpose of training, equipping and educating others that are sick, either in one or more of these areas; physically, spiritually, relationally, emotionally, mentally and financially to be restored.

Personal:

Raised in the southern state of Louisiana to a middle class family. The first-born and one younger sibling. “Out of womb into the Church nursery”, saved at five years of age. Lived a traditionally evangelical and conservative life. Driven to excel, finish college and own my own business with expectations of marriage, family and ministry with husband. All of which seemed to be somewhere off in a very distant future in my early adult life. Determined to be a college graduate, at the expense and loss of several marriage proposals. Their only focus was only family, not a college graduated wife or ministry. Started my first business at 22 yrs of age and self- employed all of my adult life.

Ministry was the heart desire of my life. Participated as I could, Traveled in music ministry and deliverance, served on church advisory boards. BUT what I know now-- Was the more I know – the more I did NOT know! Make sense? Remember, My people perish for lack of knowledge.

NOT unlike any strategy or schemes. Satan came to steal, kill and destroy! As in many lives the Traumas of early life, sets us up to get us to that shocking blow! That in my life was the devastating failure in marriage that led to DIVORCE. How can we be so deceived? Great guilt and shame over took me. BUT GOD! I learned how to appropriate the word of God for health, for strength, for peace that surpasses ALL understanding and Joy unspeakable. God healed and began to renew my youth like the eagles- turning the clock back! As I cried out, He taught me therefore, I began to regain my health, my life and ministry, and desires of my heart were truly being restored, as All the things the enemy stole from me.

The Lord began restoring my health as I learned His truth.
Healed of Low Thyroid, no more migraines – medicines and shots ceased after over 24 yrs, NO more food allergies, Learning disability cleared, my extreme FEAR of public speaking! Restored in me, the calling in ministry I heard him tell me at the age of 14 and repeatedly since. God’s word says, the enemy has to repay 7x for what he stole! In the year 2006 was my cherished year of RESTORATION and Year of Jubilee! Samekh VAV - year 5766. Isaiah 54!

The icing on the cake - He brought me THE husband of my dreams that I could dare not even begin to dream or ask for. I had truly laid that desire down. God knows how to give good gifts to his children. He gave me a man who goes beyond anything I could have asked or imagined. My Godly Boaz named Tommy! He takes good care of me, supports me IN the ministry that God called me too. I did not know this kind of relationship could exist. If I had, I would have felt selfish.

God had given me earlier in life of over 20 yrs ago, a supernatural child, (Isaiah 54) and my very own beautiful daughter. God led her too choose me! What an honor! Not only have I gotten the best daughter I could ask for, I have 4 beautiful grandchildren! A loving son-in-law, who loves and cherishes his family, a wonderful provider, husband and father. By the Year 2006 I have more than my heart could have expected.

I grew up in conservative traditional family and God supplied me supernaturally a family in untraditional ways. His ways are higher than ours- He reminded me. I have the greatest supportive Parents on the planet, who support me in EVERYTHING I DO. God has Restored me and shown me HIS ever lasting love he does know the desires of our hearts. The life scripture - Romans 8:28 of which now have both a personal understanding to me as well as the ministry scripture Isaiah 58:12. Thank you Jesus for RESTORING ME and calling me to be the “Repairer of the Breach”, the restorer of paths to dwell in. Amen and Amen!

God is in to the RESTORATION business. He wants you walking WHOLE, body, soul and spirit. WELL and NOT sick. Blessed and NOT cursed. It is HIS perfect will for ALL of His children. Won’t you come and find out how to walk in wholeness as our Lord intended? I never want to forget the Power of the Word, and that we indeed don’t have to look any further! Every Christian has the answers he needs right there in the HOLY BIBLE. Amen!

Background:

• Born in Louisiana.
• Received Christ as Lord and Savior at age 5.
• Grew up as an active member of a Southern Baptist Church
• Felt God's call to the ministry at age 14
• Baptism of the Holy Spirit at age 19 as Derek Prince, laid hands and also experienced first healing of a knee injury, and no problems since!

Education/Memberships:

• B.F.A. in Advertising, Photography, Marketing
• Graphic Training - Art Institute of Dallas
• Amberton University – Graduate studies, Biblical Counseling
• Graphic Artist Guild of America
• Print Production Association of America
• Ordained – Licensed International Minister
• Citizens Police Academy

Past Ministry/Training:

• Music/Choir traveling/recording with Thurlow Spurr
• Missions to Mexico
• 3 Years Counseling Through the Bible
• Prayer and Altar Ministry Team leader
• Ministry team “Light the Fire” and “Catch the Fire”.
• CBN phone/prayer counselor
• Intern, Deliverance and Dissociative Team ministries
• Consult to the Thomas family of KVTT Radio and TV
• Consult to Marlin Maddox and Point of View program
• Lay counselor/minister/board member with Foursquare Church
• Trained under Dr. Mungadze on Dissociation Identity Disorder*
  (Green Oakes Hospital – Studied/assisted many dealing with the DID diagnoses.)
• Streams Ministry - John Paul Jackson, prophet
• Restoration in Christ - Tom Hawkins*
• Theophostics ministry - Ed Smith*
• DayStar phone/prayer counselor
• Be In Health Global- “A More Excellent Way”, Henry Wright
• Peacemaker Ministries studies

*Trained, but do not use this training any longer!

Present Ministry:

• Co-Founder of Journey2Wholeness Ministries, Inc.
• Minister locally and nationwide.
• Conduct Training’s to equip others, restoring lives Globally

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